Anxiety Much?
Perhaps the area I struggle with most as a freelance designer – balancing my work load and finding time for all of the management stuff as well. No matter how much time I allot for replying to emails, following up on leads and the daily project management type stuff… it’s never enough. There is literally beads of sweat on my forehead as I type this, and it’s not because it’s hot in here. Apparently, I’ve got some anxiety issues.
Over the weekend, I spent a good 10-12 hours taking care of those tasks that I never seem to have time for. I should be feeling great right about now, but my right leg is bouncing a mile a minute as my mind ignores the beautiful orchestral score that is the Morrowind soundtrack.
It’s fuckin’ strange, it really is. I’ve been fully expecting a sense of accomplishment to kick in after each task I complete and in turn, as my to-do list gets narrowed down. But for whatever reason, it just isn’t happening! Instead, I keep going over everything that’s left on my plate and what the coming week holds.
What’s really weird, is that even when my mind is racing as it is. I’ll be able to sleep just fine. Which I should be thankful for, no doubt. But does that even make sense? Some times I’ll hit the pillow and think to myself, “If I don’t stop thinking about all of this, I”ll never get to… ZZZzzz.”
As messed up as I feel right now, I’m more at ease than I would be if I wasn’t organized. I can’t even imagine handling all that I do without the help of Basecamp, Blinksale and now Highrise. If there’s one thing I love about all of those apps, it’s the ability to post something and let it slip your mind. Whether it be sending off an invoice, posting a milestone or adding a task to follow up on an email in a few days – I’d seriously be in trouble if I didn’t have them.
Hmmm, I’ve tried to wrap this up three times now unsuccessfully. How about I just say “fuck” and we call it a night? 😛